im accumulated with their actions revolving around me
like a rotating object
they come and go
to and fro

repeating its daily routines
like a daily movement
i'm so used to it.


just like a contagious disease.
everyone grows addictive to it.
they act like someone they aren't
just to have that certain someone's attention.
Why can't just remain you?



they lie, so do i.
they cry, so do i.
they smile, so do i.
they say goodbye, i don't.

one thing i'll never do.



even when things start getting closer to the edge.
i'll plaster up a smile.

even when i know things are going bad.
i'll look at the brighter side.

even when i know the chapter is coming to an end.
i'll grab my pen and continue the story till i decide when it stops.








because in my life

im the gamemaster
im the story teller of my chapters
im the one in control of what i say comes and goes.

im the one who decides when to end and start.


i'm sick of parents telling me how to run my life.
i'm sick of Pretending-to-be friends just to have my attention and so-called safety.
i'm sick of teachers pressurising me
i'm sick of all this Fucking stress.

but i'm never sick of smiling.
thats the one thing that hide's everything.






i say it ends

soon.

11:09 PM