Sometimes, when you walk alone
You pause for a moment to take a look around
When you're tired of feeling alone
Just follow me

You fall asleep alone again
You try hard to doze off & close your worn out eyes
But you still can't sleep because of the many, many thoughts

when it gets tough
Brush it off & lean on the rhythm, oh
With our song for you ♥

Brush it off & leave it to the rhythm
For the anticipation of the unfolding tomorrow,

Your IQ is two digits, test scores are also two digits
School rank is three digits
Why in the world, why?
Throughout the entire day, you only hear nagging
What are you doing at your desk today, why?

During this tiresome day
Even if there's no place to rest
Never become weak
No way.
Even if there's no on
To understand your grieving heart.
Never give up.
Your way.

To the person I trusted, I gave you my best
But your love changes like seasons do
Bye, goodbye
Saying that you don't have time
& the lies I endured everyday
Pretending like I didn't know
I believed that you would return back then, back then

Even if the tears fall down sometimes
Cover both your eyes
Never become weak, ah.
No way
Even if it seems like there's no end
On those sleepless nights
Never give up

when it gets tough, think about who will greet you (:
As I wait for you to come
I'm smiling for you, hey
when you can't sleep
Wait for another unfolding tomorrow
When this night passes, you'll come to me


Side to side, your sad tears
Side to side, all your pain
Tap, brush it off

just look foward.

4:22 AM

i've never felt more angry
and hurt
and dissapointed

i'm so fucking stupid;
so fucking heartless;
i don't need their judgements,
say what you want


-satisfy yourself.





i promised not to smoke.
i'll keep that promise.

but i don't have A FUCKING CLUE.
why i'm shaking uncontrollably and my heart aches.

this feeling hurts,
it brings salty tears streaming down my cheeks.
yet im smiling.


i deserve this.

i always did.

i've never felt more happier.
being someone who is heartless.

the cause of someone's sufferring.


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12:23 AM

im accumulated with their actions revolving around me
like a rotating object
they come and go
to and fro

repeating its daily routines
like a daily movement
i'm so used to it.


just like a contagious disease.
everyone grows addictive to it.
they act like someone they aren't
just to have that certain someone's attention.
Why can't just remain you?



they lie, so do i.
they cry, so do i.
they smile, so do i.
they say goodbye, i don't.

one thing i'll never do.



even when things start getting closer to the edge.
i'll plaster up a smile.

even when i know things are going bad.
i'll look at the brighter side.

even when i know the chapter is coming to an end.
i'll grab my pen and continue the story till i decide when it stops.








because in my life

im the gamemaster
im the story teller of my chapters
im the one in control of what i say comes and goes.

im the one who decides when to end and start.


i'm sick of parents telling me how to run my life.
i'm sick of Pretending-to-be friends just to have my attention and so-called safety.
i'm sick of teachers pressurising me
i'm sick of all this Fucking stress.

but i'm never sick of smiling.
thats the one thing that hide's everything.






i say it ends

soon.

11:09 PM

I was wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me
with your words everyday

Baby do you really wanna hurt me?
Why are you doing this to me? why?

The stories regarding your other girls
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but

The way you act when you are intoxicated
The way you smile at my friends
-Change it
-Stop it
Even though I tell you many times
even though i talk it over and OVER with you.

You say I'm so sorry only for that moment
You say I will change only for that moment
My heart's in pain ; it hurts but
I can't help but repeating

I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
but I keep going back to you

Baby you and ii?
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
till my face cracks; i bear the pain like i did with the years.


My heart and body go astray
I am a such fool with no pride that
Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears
and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong
The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away
The fact that I'm like a bubblegum chewed and spat away.
Makes my feeling unbearable
But Why? =]


Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again

3:28 AM

roamiing about in my own thoughts

ii go on and say

ii don't wanna fall out , but roll out of time

iis this over?

and one day

-no

you won't be mine.



oh toniight i'm feeling fine.

i'm alone just wasting time on romantiic candlelights

i'm just having conversations with the thoughts in my head

all i hear are angels cryiing, i wanna hear them sing instead. .




who will take all this pain away?

3:06 AM