Wednesday, September 29, 2010Y
LOOK FOWARD ♥ okay?
Sometimes, when you walk alone
You pause for a moment to take a look around
When you're tired of feeling alone
Just follow me
You fall asleep alone again
You try hard to doze off & close your worn out eyes
But you still can't sleep because of the many, many thoughts
when it gets tough
Brush it off & lean on the rhythm, oh
With our song for you ♥
Brush it off & leave it to the rhythm
For the anticipation of the unfolding tomorrow,
Your IQ is two digits, test scores are also two digits
School rank is three digits
Why in the world, why?
Throughout the entire day, you only hear nagging
What are you doing at your desk today, why?
During this tiresome day
Even if there's no place to rest
Never become weak
No way.
Even if there's no on
To understand your grieving heart.
Never give up.
Your way.
To the person I trusted, I gave you my best
But your love changes like seasons do
Bye, goodbye
Saying that you don't have time
& the lies I endured everyday
Pretending like I didn't know
I believed that you would return back then, back then
Even if the tears fall down sometimes
Cover both your eyes
Never become weak, ah.
No way
Even if it seems like there's no end
On those sleepless nights
Never give up
when it gets tough, think about who will greet you (:
As I wait for you to come
I'm smiling for you, hey
when you can't sleep
Wait for another unfolding tomorrow
When this night passes, you'll come to me
Side to side, your sad tears
Side to side, all your pain
Tap, brush it off
just look foward.
4:22 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2010Y
thanks.
i've never felt more angry
and hurt
and dissapointed
i'm so fucking stupid;
so fucking heartless;
i don't need their judgements,
say what you want
-satisfy yourself.
i promised not to smoke.
i'll keep that promise.
but i don't have A FUCKING CLUE.
why i'm shaking uncontrollably and my heart aches.
this feeling hurts,
it brings salty tears streaming down my cheeks.
yet im smiling.
i deserve this.
i always did.
i've never felt more happier.
being someone who is heartless.
the cause of someone's sufferring.
T
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12:23 AM
Monday, September 27, 2010Y
킴숭혜 , 그것 때문에 짜증나!
im accumulated with their actions revolving around me
like a rotating object
they come and go
to and fro
repeating its daily routines
like a daily movement
i'm so used to it.
just like a contagious disease.
everyone grows addictive to it.
they act like someone they aren't
just to have that certain someone's attention.
Why can't just remain you?
they lie, so do i.
they cry, so do i.
they smile, so do i.
they say goodbye, i don't.
one thing i'll never do.
even when things start getting closer to the edge.
i'll plaster up a smile.
even when i know things are going bad.
i'll look at the brighter side.
even when i know the chapter is coming to an end.
i'll grab my pen and continue the story till i decide when it stops.
because in my life
im the gamemaster
im the story teller of my chapters
im the one in control of what i say comes and goes.
im the one who decides when to end and start.
i'm sick of parents telling me how to run my life.
i'm sick of Pretending-to-be friends just to have my attention and so-called safety.
i'm sick of teachers pressurising me
i'm sick of all this Fucking stress.
but i'm never sick of smiling.
thats the one thing that hide's everything.
i say it ends
soon.
11:09 PM
Monday, September 20, 2010Y
♥
I was wrong
Your words were so, so, so sweet that
I didn't realize you were playing me
with your words everyday
Baby do you really wanna hurt me?
Why are you doing this to me? why?
The stories regarding your other girls
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but
The way you act when you are intoxicated
The way you smile at my friends
-Change it
-Stop it
Even though I tell you many times
even though i talk it over and OVER with you.
You say I'm so sorry only for that moment
You say I will change only for that moment
My heart's in pain ; it hurts but
I can't help but repeating
I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
but I keep going back to you
Baby you and ii?
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
till my face cracks; i bear the pain like i did with the years.
My heart and body go astray
I am a such fool with no pride that
Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears
and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong
The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away
The fact that I'm like a bubblegum chewed and spat away.
Makes my feeling unbearable
But Why? =]
Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again
3:28 AM
Thiings go Spinning Differently now.
roamiing about in my own thoughts
ii go on and say
ii don't wanna fall out , but roll out of time
iis this over?
and one day
-no
you won't be mine.
oh toniight i'm feeling fine.
i'm alone just wasting time on romantiic candlelights
i'm just having conversations with the thoughts in my head
all i hear are angels cryiing, i wanna hear them sing instead. .
who will take all this pain away?
3:06 AM
Wednesday, August 11, 2010Y
10/8/2010
i don't want to argue with you
even if its over a small matter.
the thought of arguing is scary
its like taking a step back further.
slowly growing far apart.
I DONT WANT THAT.
im sorry
a thousand times from my heart
i'll even write it down on a paper.
i'll say it a thousand times.
1:38 AM
Be my last.
im just trouble to you.
i cry just thinking about it.
seriously what the fuck is wrong with me?
For once in my life.
this year for my birthday
instead of wishing
i never existed.
*as usual*
i TAKE IT BACK
if i didn't existed ,
i wouldn't of had met you.
i wish
FOR ONCE.
i could have a valentines day with you.
and the next and after that.
1:29 AM
WHAT WHEN HOW WHY
WHAT
did i do to deserve someone
-who treated me like i was his world
-you looked at me like i was his reason of living
-who cared for me
WHEN
-can i see you?
-can i talk to you face to face?
-can i look right into your eyes and tell you those three words?
-can i hold your hands.
-can i have THAT chance?
HOW
-can i make u less miserable, when i'm the cause of it?
-can i make u smile
-can i make your life a less complicated one?
-can i make you happy?
-can i TELL you
WHY
-is it so hard?
-am i complaining so FUCKING MUCH?;
im NOT giving up on you
WHY?
ii want you to be my last.
1:12 AM
Wednesday, July 21, 2010Y
stating out MY FACTS
Don't love because goodbye will always come.
3:46 AM
용서 잊지 않고
I open my eyes that will not open.
To find your marks,
To find your memories.
Dont forget to remember
My heart is like..
I am still in love with you.
All I want is you
Ill be there for you always.
My love is only one person.
You'll be in my heart...
I close my eyes that will not close.
I tightly hold onto your picture with my shaking two hands.
Dont forget to remember.
My heart is like..
*taking your hands i rest it on my chest*
feel it beating for you.
Even if I live inside cold tears,
When the icy cold tears find me
Would our time kept inside my heart be forgotten?
Even if I live the end of my life
All I want is you
IM SORRY
미안 해요, 난 다른 옵션이 있습니다.
하지만 멀리서 당신을 사랑하십시오.
내가 너희와 항상 함께하실 수 없습니다.
하지만 당신의 마음 어딘가에 있습니다.
3:37 AM
why?.
i just went to check the mailbox.
i was surprised there was one letter adressed to me.
when i opened it and read it's contents,
tears started rolling down my face.
i don't know why?
it just seems stupid enough.
even if i was over you
a
long time ago
of all people, why
YOU?
THIS LETTER
received : 21/07/2010킴숭혜,
are you doing well?
Aren't you sick?
i worry about you; without me.
i hope that you eat well even when you are busy,
bundle up when it's cold,
and live strongly without crying.
one day in 2009
(i won't tell you when)
i held a pen thinking about you.
how long has it been?4 years it seems.
wondering who you would call to walk you home ,
morning and night.
i wrote letters that cannot be sent to you.
i worry again today if you are eating well
i care about you
i think about you
24 / 7 gwihaneun hangsang nae ma-eumsog-e neulineven though i know i shouldn't be doing this.
i write about this heart that will never reach you.
i worry too much, aren't i?
i am talking to much, aren't i?
i'm only telling you things just like a habit.
i keep seeing your images of tears, so everyday is difficult.
Why didn't i realise how precious you are back then?
Why was i numb when love was coming to me,
but missing it now after it's gone?
i didn't know and appreciate when you are right beside me
because i was a foolish man
because i was a stupid man
i used the distance as an excuse i never should have
i only realised after you left.
Those
3 years, i gave you a hard time didn't i?
i'm so sorry.
i'll let you go now.
please meet someone good and happy
i believe that you'll do just fine ; i know you will
i don't want to stain your smiling pictures with my tears
so today,
i keep on smilingplease do take care of yourself.
i'll always be there , somehow
watching over you.
Forever waiting
**************************
idiot,
i closed the letter, placed it aside.
my visions closing in on me.
Fooliish. idiot. buggard.
i mumbled
waste of your timeand a tear rolled down my cheek.
and i laughed,
Thank You.
i will promise,
i won't look back.
3:07 AM
Replay, getting sick of it
One,
two,
It escaped through the cold window
The stars are seeping away brightly
And I breathe on them softly
Even if the Sun rises then sets
Or even if the time keeps on flowing
I think I will stay the same forever
I think things will stay the same
my hearts never going to change
Where is it heading to?
Whereabout is it heading to?
Eyes open and greeted by the new morning
Nothing is new anymore
The UNSATISFIABLE heart
Will it be satisfied as the time moves on?
3:01 AM
Wednesday, July 14, 2010Y
WTH
♥
真的想念你双手
真的想念和你玩
真的想念你的笑
真的希望我有机会和你在次在一起
2:55 AM
i'll wait.
вяaggεd †o †hε εή†iяε woяld
Wai†εd iή †hε pouяing яain
jus† foя чou
2:29 AM
평소처럼 지루해.
its raining again.
it soaks my emotions all together.
the thunder draining my thoughts.
unconditionally coughing badly; sighs. strepsils aren't working
my thoughts still lingers about
what to dowhat to dowhat to dowhat
AM i supposed to do?
omfgeeeee
xiimo is going insane.
RAWRHH!wondering how to glue it back together
wondering when will it all come together
how long till this path reaches the dead end?
and yeah , of course.
s
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TEACHERS TOO!WAKA WAKA EH EH TO YOU!
BOO YOU 
WHORES =[
2:19 AM
나의 심혼 이전
thinking little of it i guess its over already
the last period , the map i marked
ripping all of it , back to the streets
i'm not wandering , just looking for you
relocate you
where did you go?
above the blue sea
- swimming, just a whale's dreamour AWKWARD first meeting
the concern for each other
- came and wentin no time we spent together
and the seldom conflicts
staying up all night together
OUR HISTORY IS DAYBREAKpledging new friendship ocassionally
-
saying i know toochildish fool
at harsh criticisms , talking with a friend
the
PROMISE that this time will be the last
i don't know if it will be kept
Because i don't know
- its hardwe were friends if we were together
a little child, foolish yet playful
but we slowly take seperate roads
-
i'm losing it alli fell more empty as ever
i lost the taste
i forgot the flavours
i am
ROAMING about
after
SENDING you off
it's all dark
my lights too dim
now where are you
- don't knowi'll try and find you....
The fierce and cold
sheets of rain and wind
The sky and ground
Ground that isn't dry for a long time
-
i haven't seen for a great long timeeven if 1, 2 , 10 , 100, 10000 years passed
a choice that is not regretful
they are all futile lies
why am i remorseful now?
Looking back, my sins are more
only the fiercest winds blows gently
the memories i threw away,
the broken sugar cube
an uncomfortable dream
my throat gets thirsty
long time no see
- with no burdensi said leave
without you, i keep on living
a sad lone wild goose
i'm still searching
even if you are irreplaceble..
4:21 AM
Boy Im ready for your love
You got me going steady for your love
Nobody but you Im thinking of
So heavenly so obvious
You got me going steady for your love
Aint nobody but you Im thinking of
Thats only because we belong together
Give me just a little time
You be always on the go, its like, oh, you can barely say Hi
My sweet lover, there can never be another
Wanna rub ya, baby all the above
No one can deny youre so fly
and best thing that is you are mine
And its killing me everyday of the week
Oh, but I guess I get by
Want you on this side of me
Just ride with me to our destination
Never mind your probs and woes
We can sail away and be freed of those
Everyday type city life
Now its our time, enjoy this view
The sun is out and its all about you and me
Lets get this groove on
Get a move on
Hey, lets cruise on
Until the morning
you got my head on spin, aint nothing I would do
Whats going on, we going out
Cuz its about me and you
Im talking every second of every minute, Im thinking about you
We gonna breeze right through, forever from my heart, I promise you
The way you treatin me
So heavenly and wonderful
Oh we have so much so fun, cant get enough,
I need some more
Thats for sure, gotta let you know
Im ready to just give you my all
And I cant wait for you to hold me gently in your arms
Caress my body baby, as we both become one
Feel it all deeply in my heart
That we belong together my love, oh
your love
so mind-blowing
I need you
And thats for life-long
you know were so right flowin
Indeed we got a thing, cant no one ever deny
3:58 AM
Stay here by my side
Can you feel me now
Take a deep breath and let me explain
All the pain that's been wreckin my brain
Gettin so close to goin' insane
And see you standing there
And the feelin' never gonna be the same
seems like we missed the whole damn train
Blame is all we have for us
And I can let in get in the way
Even if the love is the costly price to pay
Lookin' back life love was the game of cliché
Gotta move away sacrifice my heart and let you breathe again
Everything is too late now,
The way you never spoke at times,
That our relationship was becoming solitary,
Now that I'm alone
Honestly...
you being by my side was something I thought was natural,
The mail I sent; User unknown
In the empty closet,
The promise ring we chose together for your birthday,
Lays in the corner
Before the door closes, baby please don't go away,
I regret not expressing my feelings, want you to say,
Although I come to regret now, I know it's late,
There is nobody who can take her place,
I want you to stay, want you to stay
The last words, yes,
They were 'Goodbye' rather than 'Thanks'
It shows it's the end, getting over me
It's the proof that I could not give what she wanted,
The key of the mail box, End of the story
The night will come in the room I'm alone in,
I can't see the lady who would be smiling in pictures
There will be no chance that I can forget you,
Baby please don't fade away,
You won't erase all day,
Want you to stay,
Because it makes me this sad, I know it's late
your existence which I had to keep,
3:50 AM
30/05/2010
i was working
there was nothing to do
i switched on my pc
played on facebook
open MAT and chat over there
many things crossed my mind and left
untill my eyes caught a couple .
it was so far, the only thing that touched my heart so far
a boy, nearly in his early twenties, similar to the girl
the difference was that.
the boy, he was quite handsome and stylish
whereas the girl, she was a Handdicapped..
i saw the way He treated her.
he treated her like any other girl would've wanted their own to treat them
he hugged her close, he held her hand. he Fed her, smiled at her.
from his eyes, by the way he looked at the girlfriend.
no matter what her condition was.
He LOVED her so much
i was Astonished.
and touched
What does it take for Girls to find GUYS like these again?
i learnt, its not appearances that matter
its what both hearts share within a bond
how they click within a link they share.
and how long they would want to spend it together
but for me
LOVE is still a complicated Figure.
10:28 AM
my life
Can't keep on livin' this way
현실의 벽 앞에 내 신념만을 지켜
My Life
-Can't keep on runnin' away
벼랑 끝 삶이라도 발걸음을 딛어
다섯 손가락을 펴 내 나이를 말하던 아이,
작은 손에 꽉 쥔 펜은 단칸방이
숫자와 그림 글로 가득찰 때까지
그리고 또 그려 마르지 아니하니
첫사랑의 시작도 하얀 도화지 모서리 끝에서부터 자라
소나기처럼 적어 내려가 못난 이야기,
수줍은 고백 공책 한 가득히 담지
눈이 멀어 갈 곳 없던 19세
어설픈 피카소 흉내 걸친 바지속춤에
음악을 훔쳐 달고 날아가 품에 품어
시린 눈물 닦아내며 고독과 늘 다퉈
날 향한 질투어린 시선 뒤돌아 설 수 없는
벼랑끝 내 이념 끝의 끝에서 사그러드는 불꽃이며
내맘은 한 여름에 내린 눈송이여...
한때 짙은 선악의 기준, 이젠 자각의 빈틈,
사각에 비춘 눈빛은 망각의 깊음
악에 찌든 쓴웃음과 말라비튼 어린시절
내가 접던 낡은 학의 날개짓뿐
가슴을 찟는 현실, 결백의 변질,
버틸수 없는 삶을돌아봐 공책속에 적힐
내 결실없는 가을, 껍질뿐인 삶을,
엎질러진 물한방울 갈망했던 맘을
네겐 숨겨, 왜냐...
부끄럽다 느껴 내가 자신을 보는게 두렵다 내 정신상태가
양심의 때가 나의 죄의 댓가,
스스로 지은 비극속에 사는 세내카
내 삶은 물거품, 사회란 벽의 틈, 내 아픔...
작품의 탈을 쓴 문화상품
아무리 미친 소리같은 고달픈 얘기라도
i know this is MY life
쉽게 그대는 믿죠 무대위에 내 미소,
허나 무지개 빛도 소나기 뒤에 쉼표
My life it ain't simple,
it's complicated,
I'm jaded,
Livin' everyday frustrated like a faded picture.
I'm losin' focus,
reminesce when my life was
made of scripture like Moses,
But now my locusts turn on me, eternally,
infernal seed planted deep inside of me
빛으로 내 삶을 채우던 과거는
세상을 반으로 쪼개나눈 짝사랑의 애달픔
그 어떤 고통의 시로 날 가둬도
아직은 눈물없이 볼 수 있어 차가워도
현실에 목이 매여 내뱉을 수 없다면 끄적임
평온의 대화로 미래를 얻자며
오늘도 내 삶을 달래며 달리는 외로운 거리는
고요함이 가득함을...
12:53 AM
Tell me
still thinking about this thing alot
-it got me wide awake from 9.20 till 6.30
you got me shaken up
-tell me there is a way, i plead
And it got my head just spinnin' round round round round
-please, is there a way?
Don't wanna take the fall
It's best to break it up
It's gonna be better for you
-just move on
My heart be breakin breakin,
thinking we would of had make it; make it
But now I've recovered it all
I swear I won't even for a second
-cause you any pain
in order to protect you
-there's already no other way
Baby our love itself brings us pain
-And I got nothing, nothing to say
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
seem to be letting go
if forgetting me will give you freedom Baby
Tell me goodbye...
you know when you lose your smile
-ii will place the blame on myself
Those words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else
-believe me
Baby the moment our lips part this time
I'll never find better, better than you
-in my heart your always mine,
-number one and only one
Sad it just ain't happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can't let you...
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn't live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
you were Superb
Best believe that it hurts
That bleeds this word
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
just to let you go
I wish that weren't so.
your voice?
pained and fading away
-farther and farther
erased completely by the wind
-whispering to myself; please come back
-don't leave me ; STAY
all these things,
can't take it,
those tears,
FOR YOUR SAKE I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK AGAIN
12:16 AM
당신의 조각들
i write and dedicate the following to the friends that i lost, and are long gone.
The ones that i just made and love, the ones that left and went.
because these are memoriies ; Piieces of you
[당신의 조각]
Dediicated to
Y.O.U
Your eyes the first mirror of my life
that clear image of me inside
wants to resemble it again for you
that even made the vast galaxy colourless
your T.W.I.N stars
[ you were compatible, alike, understanding - u tried]
instead of sadness
you made a rapid Flow; where there were so many tears
Wanting to fill it for you again
Tried to hide from your eyes
for that short time Y.O.U were my world
Your hands; the first balance of my life
where the worlds truths and lies were weighed for me ; my life's globe
that lesson; a pile of bones , where the feathers; still stuck to the wings
remember, the cold that froze your hands and time
the memoriies i made with you?
the time i held your hand so warmly
your eyes
-oh so beautiful, as always them shining stars.
your hands
-yes, oh my. a perfect fit; slipped away
wanting to look in you eyes and hold your hands forever
i was already wishing to turn back the time
-just a small hope
YOU know i do ; i do love YOU
even the sight of you growing tired
even the sight of your back to me growiing smaller in the distance
ii do ; ii do
LOVE YOU
every little piece of you
sometimes,
i wanna hold time in my hands and control; selfish
i'd send you back so you could be me
i want to be absorbed in that song in that summer time of your youth
if i cut your existence in half; half of it you lived for me
the other half you lived thinking how to live it up together
but sometimes you say; what i can offer you is
INSIGNIFICANT
our whole life we wished and begged for a healthier body
How long can i just receive? ; i want to Give now
everything that's been giiven to me; stacked up nice and neat
-everything put aside.
couldn't turn it down apart from the uncomfortableness.
still sick of it all
life's a sickness and i start to hate it all again
Blacker than dirt on a dress
my faults have caused pain along with stress
causing my heart to tingle with cold
my breath constricted
Today the day of our Break up goes by again
[the day you left; without a warning, no goodbyes]
if it were a dream
i'd chase after you
i'd follow you
i'd go on with my life
following in your footsteps
There's not much left in this Hourglass
for us to rest in this desert of happiness
i'd do it
all
for
Y
O
U
♥
xiimo
1:48 AM
1개의 기회 더?
1개의 기회 더
i know compared to her
i'm nobody but though i ain't got a thing
"boy" i will give you the world
having a rough time breathing
in the game adults play captivating,
squeezing my "hearts"
Love cycles Tricking you
easily spent moneys
rolling round the streets; even today
knowing you throw off your school uniforms
covering your young face in make up
conscience is doing business with boundary
i'll make your heart hurt with smile and joy
i'll heal your wounded mind
from the wind blowing from the world
i'll be your shield , sheltering you in my chest
i'll be your captviation.
just give me a chance to redo the equation.
2:16 AM
나의 꿈.2
time that halts in the moonlight;my mind running in the endless dark
the end of thoughts springs
is the waterfall of daydreams
do my life just scatter
like cigarette flung in the dawns wind?
Dread's speed even sends it in front of time
the pieces of my colliding thoughts
watching the bond of fire
with a piece of iron above
we are "monocle" a "cenacle"
shutting one eye to make the other eye open a little wider
the SCORES of people brushing past by me
and the love flowing past
the gaps of my hands
Ive let it all pass to easily
i guess ...
NOTHING IS FOREVER
like november rain; it's pouring
stress and pain just to entertain
every begining could be the end
i pray a final prayer
today, my life could flow with the river
tomorrow, it could flow against it
The rain that swept through my life
is the God's attempt to hide their tears
days, always stood on the edge of a sharp knife
getting kicked about like days like these
unable to find the base, it just slopes up and down
my fate purposes the end of this peak
i can't even bring out the words " unhappy " always
- unfortunate
- unstable
i can' make up my own miind
i don't even know how to go on
even if im standing on my own Two feet
like a train on a railway
i can't talk about anything outside the track
i can't finish it either, i just dot a period
A crooked beginning
in need of a greater purpose
everything fades away to the shade of gray
the darkness of the heartless enslaves the day
in this misty fog my "dream" keeps me going
lights up distorted milestones
worrys about the breath filling my lungs
another me, inside of me
keeps letting out dry sighs,
telling me , g i v e UP
At times, when i think the whole world stops
i wander out at night into the dark cold park
i don't even know where i'm going
i'm strolling in the dark
Thinking of unattainable dreams :)
나의 꿈 vol.2
1:41 AM
나의 꿈
outside my window
thousands of invisible spiders glitsens in this sleeping city
they're weaviing and ash grey web
sinking like a sigh on my desk
a pile of notes
i stooped my back and the pencill's lead ,drawing an underline
it may be so, when i grasp my already scattered dream
- i'll be fooled
wouldn't be that , i lived this far.
my hands full, filled with fantasies
-i would LET GO of this world?
*dramatic thoughts*
now that i look at it
thoughts that i have scribbled in my notebooks blank pages
- wondering ; enemies in my dreams
- are they breathiing inside of me?
the more i go on, unbecoming of myself
i'm attentive to this world
THINKING
should i let knot between dreams and reality loosen and become undone?
- that can't happen
For the last few days
i haven't been able to concentrate the small void in my hand
like trickling water; everything that was seized in my hand.
perhaps i don't even realised it, is not being able to put it down
- being wary
- being scared
it's unattainable
it's wavering
it's abandoned
but i do have ''a dream''
live and die
- for this Dream
The world turned its back on my dream
- so dishonored
abandoned on the wet ground like a torn umbrella
just thrown out
a scribble that has just been erased
- just a word that's been forgotten
but till today i'm still dreaming
an unavailing dream
though i'm the dark
i'm opening my eyes again
THINKING
-ii will never give up
MY DREAM
of a midget treading on air
the dream of a blind person grasping the rainbow
the dream of a orphan fallen asleep to a sweet lullaby
the dream of a bad daughter turning back on time
the dream of a every kid in the world, to have a mother back home waiting .
the dream of a mute, singing a song out loud
the dream of the deaf, smiling to the whispers of the one they love
.....나의 꿈
1:13 AM
can't let go
i see you no matter where i look
my crumbling heart
i can't hide
baby, for one minute, one second
i can't let go
i hear your voice no matter where i go
my broken heart
i can't breathe
baby, for one minute, one second
my aching heart
longing for you
you said you were having a bad hair day
you said your eye were puffy, and fell back asleep
sulking, i silently took of my jacket
picked up the phone and ordered take out
closed the curtain, without knowing how many hours passed
watching dvd's
just you and me
the sound of your breath as you leaned on my shoulder
i thought it was a good thing we didn't go out
Ridiculously these thoughts still torment me
i unexpectedly remembered the jokes that made you made and i fall apart
moments that are really no big deal upsets me
i remember the faces that you use to make and i break apart
no matter where you went
at the right bar at the corner
when you sat in your little corner
when you were tired and yawned
you kept the tears that you wiped away
and you would smile like an idiot
showing the dimples in your cheeks
whenever you drank water
your full lips, i hoped it would be forever
This is lov to the e
this autobiographical memory twist in my heart
Flips me upside down, with never ending tears
see love can shake a hurricane
the raindrops that blow against my feelings, one drop
The little m-e-m-o-r-i-e-s
like how this glass of alcohol become empty
our small memories became transparent
and i try to bring it back
the memories of us i can never make it again
like yesterday's night dream its so clear, but its gone
Damn
even if time stops, my heart still continue to beat
i can't let go
the whispers that takes my breath away
for one moment
our sweet secrets
for us who are sad as our love was beautiful
can my tears and smile still remember you?
our quirks and our habits
for one moment that beautiful moment
we can't turn back
12:46 AM
autobiiographiical twiist
Even if its only in my mind
even if i can't touch you
Even if its only a meaningless dream
even if i can't talk to you
Even if i hide and watch from far away
-you know i do
still, I love you
even if you don't know who i am
baby don't you know, you don't even know my name
I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you
so beautiful, your solo picture clutched in my hand
The heartbreak of my crazy love buried in the cheers of the world
Youre not even listening, you wouldnt even know if i died
Even in your next life you will live without knowing who i am
I want you so bad and its too late to turn back
Even tonight i want to kiss you so i clutch my pillow tight
Today is our first meeting right?
Only you have this sort of dialogue
Again today i talk to your retreating figure
Its always the same thing but still i give a nervous hello
Even though the whole worlds stops listening, i only need you to hear me
The further you are the hardened my heart becomes, please listen to me
Farther, and farther, fortune works wherever
Will i be able to see you?
-even if i can't have you
Even if its only a meaningless dream
Even if i hide and watch from far away
even if you don't know who i am
Darling, why are you not smiling today?
It would be nice if it was not a big problem
I couldnt look at your face filled with anxiety
It would be better if i was in pain but the impossibility of that brings regret
Hold me, the one who could respond to your question of how are you?
Cant come close, can;t touch, youre the one i cant hold
Im going to go meet you tonight in my dreams
Even if in my dreams everyone ridicules my love
Even though everyone says i am crazy and the entire world disappears
Babe you belong to me, but why are the worthless multitudes talking you away?
No, there is no way. ill make you see only me
ill give you everything, ill make your lips meet mine, ill go get the world and give it to you
Ill make it so you can never leave me, ill keep you in my sunken heart
You are my star
you are my world
you are the only one who satisfies my desires in the world
12:45 AM
수 수 께 끼
where is it?
그것은 어디에 있는가?
that small happiness i was looking for
나가 찾고 있던 그 작은 행복
unfortunately,
유감스럽게도 ,
not even a fragment of love to be found
찾아낼 사랑의 파편 조차
that hidden red piece
그 숨겨지은 빨간 조각
why is it there?..
왜 그것이 거기 있는지?.
filling up the hole with this given time
이 주어진 시간으로 구멍 높은 쪽으로 채우기
the distance so far
이제까지는 거리
my vision a blur
나의 시각 흐림
grasping it and burying it again
그것을 장악하고 다시 매장하기
everytime you grow impatient
당신이 성급하게 성장할 때마다
the time limit nears
제한 시간은 접근한다
.....i can see the way.....
.....나는 방법을 볼 수 있다.....
the distance between us two is not enough
저희 사이 거리는 2 이젠 그만이 아니다
-i love you-
- 사랑해요 -
bury these words
이 낱말을 매장하십시오
from here on our world grows countlessly
여기에서 위에 우리의 세계에서 countlessly 성장한다
voices overlapping and now
부분적으로 덮는 음성 및 지금
illuminating our paths, one day it will echo
우리의 경로를 조명해서, 1 일 그것은 반향할 것이다
loudly resonating our answers
시끄럽게 우리 응답 공진
where is it?..
그것이 있는 곳에?..
that fragment that dissappeared without reason that day
일 이유 없이 사라진 그 파편
unfortunately,
유감스럽게도,
all that is left
모든 남겨두는
is this newly made
새로 한 이것은 이다
P U Z Z L E
수
수
께
끼
♥
originally written by,
원래 곁에 쓰는,
kiim sung-hye
노래되♥
12:44 AM
빈 포탄에 남아 있는 심혼♥
그것이 우리 완성된ㄴ다는 것을 승인하십시오,
악몽 같이, 나는 그것 살았다,
그것은 묵살하기 에는 너무 컸다,
나는 기억을 본다 그러나 저를,
나의 위험 빛 번쩍이고 있다 곁에 통과한다,
누군가 누군가? 도움 이것이 비상사태이기 때문에 2개의 실연의 상자에 이야기
그것은 나쁜 수술 같이 이다.
빈 심혼의 포탄.
그것은 나의 감각을 후에 되찾는 시간 이다.
이렇게 나는 다시 넘어서 시작하고 있다.
1 의 2개의 아기 단계,
3 의 4개의 아기 단계,
5 의 6개의 아기 단계,
포기하는, 좋아 나는 울고 있다. 그것은 당신 같이 남겨두었다 사자를 위해 저를 이다나는 아주 부서진다, 나의 사랑은 언다, 당신은 어떻게 후회에 사는가?그것은 설명할 수 없다, 얻기 어려운의 종류, 당신이 사랑하는 사람 때, 사랑에 없다.나는 아주 가엾게 느낀다, 고통은 나의 심혼에 다는 것을 당신이 알고 있을 나의 얼굴을 보십시오; 눈나가 당신에게 했었던 무슨을을 위해 나는 복귀, 증오심의 샤워가 저에 당신 던지는 모두가 나에 의하여 다는 것을 짐작한다 당신 너자신에게서 모이는, 가족과 친구. 그것이 나에 의하여 가치가 있다.그러나 나는 아무것도를 하지 않을 것입니다 나는 지금 막 조용히 있을 것입니다 증오심 응시 및 모욕을 영속하십시오 그리고 당신이 저로 당신의 생각에 순전히 매일 밤마다 나가 우는, 다만 가지고 있는 혐오를 침몰시키십시오 그러나 지금 나는 알고 있다. 당신은 결코 진짜로 저를 사랑했다.나의 심혼 재건
진행중인
- 가공 실패한
- 너무 늦게
12:44 AM
xiimo' s 자백
Time is ticking,Time is ticking,Time is ticking,
Time is ticking,
Time is ticking,
Time is ticking,
away
away
away
I want to see your tears pour out,pour out without reason
No one knows inside your heart, The glass fragments are raging a storm
The wounds become a sickness, All doors become a wall,
Entrapping yourself ,
gulfing your frustration.
i have become an enemy in the mirror,
-doesn't it hurt?
- 그것은 아프는가?
i'll keep anyone from knowing about you
i'll leave the breath to tighten out
i would force you to choose the end
- aren't i bad?-나는 나쁜가?
i would even take away all the reasons in this world for you to stand
Without the choice of the road back
I guess you would walk till the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart
wounds gaping .. openscars clearly seen .. tears endlessly flowing
When you cry.
though you try.
say goodbye.
-the time is ticking-
- 시간은 똑딱거리고 있다-
You are wandering through death,
i'll save you, take my hand
When you're walking in shadows,
panicking through the abyss
my breath does the same
When all the doors in the world close for me,
I'll support you till the very last drop of life.
you are my savior,
Your hand set the world on fire, You closed everyone's eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes like stars become your city
Are your still dreaming, sleeping? Are you measuring all the tears you've shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks, isn't it sad?
Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night, Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it's the end, are you ok?
because I understand
I'm a scar on your broken body,
I'll erase the tears you've hidden away in your shattered marriage
even if you are hating me.
With all these wounds, scars and tear stained faces
you are still beautiful to me
당신은 저에게 아직도 아름답다
고생된 심혼의 자백기억의 그것의 자신의 수영장에서 익사과민했던, 그것은 개혁할 수 없습니다 박살냈다주어지는 신선하게 상처를 입은 흉터에도 불구하고당신의 증오심으로 조차 응시한다,xiimo' s 심혼은,아직도 당신을 좋아한다 당신을 항상일 것이다그녀의 유일한 없는 수수께끼 본다
12:43 AM
왜?
the options is the only thing that I decide
you see, I live for the moment now
I never did before, with all and everything I swept the floor
random I am, I never give a damn about what's gonna happen next
chiqs and cliques they left me and my job is just a memory
but that's the kind of price you've got to pay
if you're gonna go your own way
solving problems can be done in many ways
I don't care, I just roll the dice
It's o.k., cause I just have to pretend that I am someone else
Get rid of all the habits now that's the plan
come on and try it and you'll feel grand
the first step is the hardest step to take
imagination is the only brake
just roll the dice and everything will turn out nice
you can be who you wanna be
do what you wanna do and do it how you like
this is my way of getting through the day, but I still don't know
what's the next step to take.
My faltering heart. my obstructed emotions.
i use myself as an obstacle to get past through all the bad times.
i do not see things clearly but let them drift by.
the missing puzzle to my unknown statement,
were feelings that i had to push aside.
12:41 AM
Yeah, love is pain.
Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people.
One's old flame. Just scream my name.
And I'm so sick of love songs.
Yeah, I hate them damn love songs.
Momentos of ours
Late night, you come with the falliing rain my mind begins to stir with the wet memories.
Even if I swear to myself I can live without you.
But I can't help it.
I fill my heart with achohol,
but I still feel empty.
The days without you feel so long.
I beg heaven to please erase you.(It's all a lie.)
Without you I can't smile, tears don't even form.
I don't want to live anymore.
It's wrong, it pisses me off.
I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about you.
I can't see you even if I want to.
It's over, I'll be right there
I'm so sorry, but I love you.
It's a lie.I didn't know,
I know now that I need you.
I'm so sorry but I love you.
I said things out of anger and without me knowing I had to let you leave.
I'm so sorry, but I love you.It's all a lie.I'm so sorry, but I love you
I'm so sorry, but I love you.Can I forget it all slowly?
So I can be hurt
The song I put my everything into and sung for you.[People probably don't know.]
Alone, without anyone knowing.Yeah, the lies I made.
I've been left alone, keep roaming with the loneliness.
The note for seperation crumbled in my pocket.Where are you?
The habit of calling you.I want to change.I want to laugh everything over.
Hope everything's a dream.
For being able to do only this.
I still can't forget you.
No, even eventually, even after death.
Has the scar I gave you healed?
I'm sorry for not being able to anything for you
12:39 AM
m a z e 미로 . .
Three blind mice as we're lost in the maze route, lookin' for the easiest possible way out.
Day in and day out, you run into a closed road. turning into old folk, chasing after rose gold.
What they don't know is that it belongs to a fool.
Choosing wants over needs, singing songs of a mule.
Carrying their burdens when you barely know the person,
And that is the difference between a pharaoh and a servant.
I choose to serve no man no one.
At the same time avoiding all of earth's landmines.
You step in it and you blow up,
You exit or you grow up, or get locked up.
The pigs catch ya eating donuts.
But i'd rather rhyme bars than sit behind bars.
How can a prison cell contain this shining bright star.
They have no idea what i could do in a minute's time.
Break down the walls of the maze and run through the finish line.
Life is like a maze... when i'm flippin through the pages.
It's high definition black and white.
Is it digital, analog, wack or tight?
It's stressful wishing sacrifice, and the list goes on. it's the facts of life.
East coast ettiquite, west coast slang.
Peace we'll never get if shit don't change.
Do you play with the majors or go independent?
Gotta stay paid but i'm broke like a peasant.
Love, sex, greed, addictions. what's next?
Need directions. there's nobody left to follow.
Wallow in my sorrow for a hollow tomorrow.
Life is like a maze, try to keep track of the days that take us from place to place.
Awaken and face-to-face.
Too many choices, possibilities, indecision is killing me.
And if you lend a helping hand, then i will follow willingly
Flip through fashion magazines, cop a swag or lean.
When nothing's goin 'smooth', rub a little vaseline.
Do an online, offline, frontline search. either quench or confine your columbine thirst. cuz you wanna fit in...
And find a perfect 'match' to set your heart in flames. you wanna be a catch.
Catch-22, catch the flu, catchphrase.
By any means necessary in this rat's maze.
It's a black haze muddle, a rainy day puddle...
Life is gonna wet ya, get ya in a muzzle.
A struggle to survive, a huddle nine to five with no quarterback.
Change? you won't even get a quarter back.
It's a murder fact, reality kills. call your doctor now for your reality pills.
Chill, but still worry... a bug's goin' around.
Cuz life is like your home, it's 'holdin' u down'.
12:38 AM
선곡표
iits a new year
make a new better liife
make new memoriies
make new tragediies
make new niightmares
together lets make a new photo frame
together lets gather at our getaway
together lets make our own love story
together lets hold hands under the rain
together lets whisper our love quotes endlessly
together lets walk to the road that leads on forever
shall we ?
12:32 AM
One,
WHORES =[
